Sunday, May 30, 2010
love setting goals, and sort of like achieving them. I had a flashback this week while I was running: When I was in Jr High, I tried out to be a cheerleader, but I did not make the squad. It was traumatic only because all of my closest friends made it, and we were then somehow mysteriously forced into separate social groups. There was a teacher named Mrs. Reed who took notice of my lonely state, and encouraged me to join the track team. She put me on the mile because I was not fast, and I did not have any other discernible skills to jump or throw things. My first meet I tried to keep up with the pack, and ended up completely burning out on the third lap. I had no concept of pacing having not really trained much at that point, and came in dead last, running that uncomfortable last half-lap by myself to the cheers of Mrs. Reed and my mother. I puked at every meet because of nerves, and as somewhat of a hypochondriac, I'm sure I wore Mrs. Reed out on my many 'injuries', but still she cheered me on, and I got better. I started out around a nine minute mile, and ended the season with a 6:17 mile - a school record! It was not even fast compared to the other girls in the city, and I didn't even place in my last meet, but it was fast for my school. The last time I was there, I found my name still up on the wall of the gym "S. Colbaugh 6:17 Mile" - that was in 1984. I lived off of that one achievement for many years, and even though I did not stay on the track team, I have considered myself a runner in the back of my mind for many years. Last year I thought it was high time for such an intrinsic runner like myself to actually run, and so I trained with friends for the Whistestop Half Marathon in Ashland, WI. There is no point to this post other than to say that I like being in that underdog place, with room for improvement, but without anything to prove. I like working to make myself better without the insane pressure of having to be the best. Mid-run this week, I flashed back to the fullness of joy of doing my personal best, and hope to feel that way again on June 19th.